We're Living in This World at Once

She wants to inform someone that at the very least, they have survived this long; there are various things that have recently deeply wounded the hearts of their respective owners—including their feelings. She, someone, and other people have at least walked and taken steps to muster the courage to keep living with all the feelings that exist; accepting heartbreak, sorrow, misery, and other matters that sometimes feel overwhelmingly suffocating. However, with full safety and celebration, she just wants to say; congratulations, they have dared to continue from day to day, time to time, and breath to breath. If the days seem increasingly heavy, it’s okay, because maturity is that profound; accepting facts that were previously unimaginable. That’s just how it is. She and someone are growing in new realities to keep living. Even though the present days or those to come may not be friendly, always remember that she and he once had the best times together—about once being innocent and happy wi...

As a woman whose was born from working class families; whose believed on how patriarchy ruin her live. She had many pains on her; she saw how hard being woman in trully human without any body interupted her anyway. She's still walking on it to looking for what the meaning of live for her as human being. She did not want to be the woman who're tied by someone power without permission; she had been being the one who're fighting for he life as hard as she could do; as woman, she's not the one who're perfect. She had already been into unpredictable life. she's been suffering on several ways to know the fact that life still isn't easy for woman. She had been being the one who're deciding to stay on other hand; she had been left by someone else who did not respect her as woman; the one who's just seeing her as 'thing' not in trully 'human'. She had been being the one who've already tired to be life anymore just because life is just so s...

Unlike moving stay in a place forever without moving lost the way and didn't know for sure just silence, reading, and listening to music Murakami gives a warm deep heart Hemingway knows very well The other thing  to read poems as well Hopefully, this will be the last year moving to stay, in a place forever move to another city? Because didn't know which city to stay However, now know where to stay In a beautiful city in the country come back there forever this year stay there No moving and changing place see the blue sky Hear the wind blows Listen to the water flows as the year of silence the city when moving Missing my city when moving

She started reading Ms. Dalloway but just decided to stop in the first chapter, why? she just could not hold it anymore;  The words sometimes made her hurt deeply on the other hand words sometimes became her strength to look another way with a different point of view. She still did not know how to handle all the feelings she had; even before she knew how to embrace all the things that happened. She was becoming a clueless person who did not know how to express her feelings through speaking with others; On things that she could just write but writing was sometimes really hard for her because she did not know how to write. Could she be fine? Or could she be pain? the world did not know; others did not know too; women are always becoming the stronger humans by through the huge waves, right? In other choices, to give her life more; she decided to bought everything she want - she's bought a flower by herself.

Right now; she knows what she wants. she's changed, truly changed. Time was changing her to be the truly she wanted to be. She was not becoming the one she wanted before. She had tried everything she wanted. She had followed all the things; people, places, minds, movies, videos, and other things. She had done everything for something that did not match her. She's truly sick and in pain; just because she knows if she left all the things behind the memories would be still there to remember. The beautiful things behind would make her die. She would truly leave these all. Could she be? Does she want to give up? will she be fine? Would she be happy after she left anything? She still does not know. She just knew if she would keep walking even if the ways were too long. She's dying right now just because she did not have anything to hold; she's still alone to make these decisions. she felt the earth would not give her a place anymore. she feels if she would be rejected after t...

Alive and pain are things which humans could not avoid; the more the humans had felt alive the more pain they would feel as trully. The more they did not accept how hurt that feeling the more they are suffering. She knew that she had a lot of imperfections; on the other side she did not want to hide the imperfections on her and just seeing how well she was. She tried to be the humans with a lot of feelings on her. She would be the purly human whose live as human supposed to live in earth. She knew that having pain is normal for living in this huge world; no one could not avoid it and no one could not denial from that feeling. When humans could not live with pain it is mean they would not be human in perfectly ways. She is still trying to living with her pains and getting hurt; she would be the one who choose to be the truly live without avoiding something behind just because she's afraid of in feeling with pain. She's brave enough to be truly human being. She knew how to feel t...