The New Year Eve, City, People and Feeling

As a human; she knew, growing up, knowing the fact that life is really hard and sometimes hurts them in a lot of ways.

They, as human beings; just could hurt each other from time to time. No matter what are they, they as humans just live to hurt each other with or without they realized it.

Being life is painful; being human is more painful. Then what things do they've to look for? Is either something that makes them happy? Or something that made them feel still alive?

On the other days; she was questioning, too often - what is her life? Who is she? Where does she live? How does she find the purpose? Which does she perform? when she would die? - Those questions always appear in her head time by time and it sickens her a lot.

People come to offer happiness then they go without asking permission to go. They just went without knowing how painful it was. Just because they did not know; What is life for? She will answer, that life is waiting when they're going to die to kill all the pain in yours.

The more she is seeking happiness the more she feels dying. She did not see anything in life anymore and realized the way she was still alive. Neither she could not kill the feeling that she had nor she just be alive.

As long as the wa has been through, she will seek things in a meaningful life. Otherwise, she is questioning; how could if she does not find it as well. What should she do? What happened in her life? Is she still alive?

Then, she felt; that those questions did not have to be answered. So, she will have the duty to try to look for more, the more she looks for the more she kills time to wait when the day is coming; the day named die.